Use It or Lose It

If I don't do therapy, will I lose all my progress? 

As I began my post-surgery rehab, my surgeon stressed the importance of being diligent about doing both physical and occupational therapy. As I have said before, physical therapy comes naturally to me. I enjoy being physical. Still, I find occupational therapy one of the most frustrating things I've done. 

To move my fingers individually requires a lot of effort. It's hard to describe what I feel (which is not necessarily where they are in space or anything that they are touching...or that they are touching anything!) They feel stiff and heavy, and pressure is all around them, especially at the fingertips. They don't at all do what I feel like they should; it's hard to get them to work well at all. It's truly exhausting to use my fingers and hand.

It literally takes nagging or a lot of effort to get me to work on my fine motor skills. It's not that I don't care; it's only that I don't want to go through the trouble. Does that mean that it doesn't matter to me? 

No, I guess just hope I improve without effort.

News Flash: I won't. When my surgeon talked about the importance of therapy, he said "Use it or lose it." I desperately don't want to lose it, but if I am being honest, I need motivation to use it.

My big concern right now is writing and typing. I mean, using a hair brush and a tooth brush, among other things, is important, but I think I need to go one step at a time. As I type this with one hand I realize that I have gotten accustomed to ignoring "Righty." If I don't utilize my right hand then I don't really have room to complain. 

Sooo baby steps it is. I need to commit to using my right hand to brush my hair and my teeth (I can finish up with my left hand) and it's time to use this bad boy:

That's right; it's a really large keyboard. It's huge. People laugh when they see it. But it's easier for the fingers on my right hand to navigate the large keys. It's one of my occupational therapy tools. I think if I am actually patient and diligent about it, I will make progress.

Patience and progress seem to be the themes throughout this whole endeavor. I can be physically active as much as I want, but if I don't give my right hand the time it needs, I am bound to lose all the fine motor skills that I crave. Hopefully that is motivation enough.


If anyone has recommendations for thick pens (think the girth of one of those fat highlighters) let me know.