Fake It Till Ya Make It...in pictures

Aaah I'm back!  I haven't written in oh-so-long for many reasons, and it's really too bad because I have a lot to write about! One thing at a time, but bottom line is that I am back, and at least for now, feeling rejuvenated!

So one of my "things" is that I am a tad self-conscious of how I look to the outside world. I once felt like I looked (somewhat) graceful, athletic, and strong. Now when I think of myself those adjectives don't even come to mind. I have become an imbalanced, un-athletic, jagged mover. To a small extent, I have come to terms with this, though I will never accept it as permanent. Having this in mind, I get it; this is how I walk and move right now; people see it, some stare yaddy yaddy yadda, but I will be damned if there are photos of me that look like there is anything wrong with me.

It has taken me a while to get this way (what with the whole having both sides of my face look symmetric and all) but for the most part I have achieved it.

I look this picture of myself in the hospital to show my sister my short hair, Clearly not symmetrical, and seriously concentrating. 

In the hospital, no eye- patch, not symmetrical!

Still in hospital, trying hard to look normal but not quite achieving.

Not to let everyone in on a secret, but if you notice, in most pictures I am using only the left side of my body. Only I seem to notice when I look 'funny.' The only thing I still worry about are my eyes, as sometimes they cross when I focus on a single small spot such as a camera. But like anyone taking a good picture, I know my angles!

Perfect example of only utilizing my left side as I stand on my left leg

My god-mother and I at The Walk for Thought in San Diego to raise money for brain injuries. It is very obvious that my right hand/arm is a little 'off' here.  

I know that in the grand scheme of things, this is not an important thing to worry about. But appearing normal is a huge part of feeling normal, which is the name of the game. I am constantly striving for life beyond what is normal for me, as I don't really have any other choice, but as far as pictures go, normalcy is just fine with me.